Work has been taking up a lot of my time. From the 7am walk out of the door to the 7pm walk back through of an evening. I’ve been in the 9-5 bubble before but not quite to this level. I’ve always wanted to surround my life around high-level sport but currently, it’s just trying to stay up to date.
I feel out of the loop of the industries I hold closest, I’m not learning like I once was and I’m not as confident in my ideas as I once was; though the latter can extend to my personal life also. Maybe this blog or website could be the start to reel myself back in, back into the obsession if it feels like something I simply have to fuel.
I sat down to write this and I felt the title probably most summed up how I feel about life right. I genuinely fear people not caring about ‘me’ whether that’s personally, or what I do, or what I provide. A deep paranoia about the worth of me, the worth of my day-to-day and if I remove sports from my life, I’m not 100% sure what I am or what I do (though perhaps I should partake a little more than I currently do so).
I recently came across a quote from Socrates, “The secret of happiness is not in seeking more, but in developing the capacity to enjoy less.” There are simple things I enjoy, mostly a morning cup of coffee but evaluating what makes me happy, what I want, what I desire and what I get pleasure from is a bizarre thing to weigh up. At 24, I don’t know. At 24, should I know?
The majority of this blog will hopefully largely be planned out pieces of sporting opinion and whilst I’ve been (very barely) putting this WordPress together for a couple of days now, the actual sitting down to type this out was spontaneous.
How does one be happy? How do you continue when you’re not receiving the value or return you desire? It’s weird. I’ve come to terms with my own issues, I’ve been on the medication and whatnot but attempting to conceptualise everything is bizarre. I ordered a couple of books on philosophy and hopefully, that’ll help maybe? I don’t know.
I’ll leave you with this from Plato, “The man who makes everything that leads to happiness depends upon himself, and not upon other men has adopted the very best plan for living happily.”
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